The hamster in my brain is doing a major workout; thoughts are circling and my fear is increasing.
Like a caged animal pacing back and forth, I wear down a path around the kitchen island.
What is wrong with me?
The doctor doesn’t know what’s going on. He suggests we try this, or try that. I grit my teeth and mumble under my breath.
Things aren’t happening the way they are supposed to; the way I had planned. I get on my knees thinking that by praying from here I will get more acceptance with God.
I try bartering with Him, this for that.
Again I ask, please heal me.
Does God see me? Does He care?
I have to figure this out because God isn’t moving fast enough.
The situation will turn out how I want, so I take control.
I put on my running shoes and run away from God.
It becomes worse, because I’ve taken control. Hopeless.
“I wait patiently for the Lord to help me and He turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.” Psalm 40:1-2 (NLT)
David spent a lot of time in the waiting room of life.
As a young boy, David was anointed King of Israel but he didn’t sit on the throne until he was 30 years old. Refugee David lived within caves in the wilderness for years as he hid from being killed.
Weary and hopeless many times, David put on his running shoes, but He dashed back to God. David knew where the best reprieve from the heaviness of life was found. God was still in control and watching him.
God turns the heaviness into blessing when we come back to Him.
“He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord. “Psalm 40:3 (NLT)
Six Tips for Remaining Near God:
- Immerse yourself in His Word. Daily.
- Put a foot of faith in front of the other. Faith is believing, when we can’t see.
- Choose to believe that healing is coming. God’s timing, not ours.
- Pray for strength sometimes minute by minute. Intentions become habit.
- Remember that healing isn’t only for the body. but for the soul also. Character over comfort.
- God promises rest and relief, we need to recognize these come from God.
Prayer: Father, I thank you for being a constant in my life. I get impatient and want life to happen the way I see it. Help me in faith remember that you have my best interest at heart. Hold me back and infuse me with strength and confidence when I’m getting frustrated. Remind me that you are in control, and only you can provide rest and relief. In your name. Amen