I wasn’t looking to find happiness in any material thing. It was deeper than that. I could feel it in my soul.
A feeling of unrest that couldn’t be quieted.
I couldn’t figure out what wasn’t right. I was spending time in God’s Word but nothing was standing out that needed to change.
My husband and I began trying different churches. Did our faith need a little fine-tuning? Was that it?
Around this time, we started visiting my Aunt in a different part of the state. We fell in love with the area. We liked the atmosphere, the community and one particular church in the area.
When we returned home from one of our visits, we both felt like we should move there. We started to pray to make sure that this was part of God’s will and not our plan.
The only problem was that my husband owned a company that was based in the area of the state where we’d be moving from. We weren’t going to sell the company.
Had we lost our minds? Many of our family would agree this was the dumbest proposition that we could have come up with.
The more we prayed together and apart, the more God was moving in our hearts.
We had to follow through in this nudging. We were too afraid to see what we’d miss if we told God no.
But, we had no reason to move. We weren’t following a job or moving closer to family. We were actually moving farther from family. And I was unexpectedly pregnant with baby #5.
Sometimes all God gives are steps and the whole path isn’t illuminated.
Faith isn’t the ability to believe long and far into the misty future.
It’s simply taking God at His Word and taking the next step.
– Joni Erickson Tada
Honestly this was really hard for me. I wanted to know where the destination ended. Lay out the steps and I could get the job done. I don’t do well on taking risks.
When I was a girl at camp we used to do an exercise where someone would do a free fall backwards while standing and another girl would catch them right before they hit the ground.
I had a hard time with this activity because I didn’t trust that the other person would catch me. What if they dropped me?
I think I’ve carried this over onto God. I say with my mouth I trust God, but in the moments of real trust I chicken out. I’m afraid to free fall.
In these moments when we feel nudging, we have to make a decision. Do we choose the nudging or quiet the nudging?
[tweetthis]Every nudge that we feel is an invitation to walk in greater faith. [/tweetthis]
Proverbs 3:5-6 (AMP) says:
Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart
And do not rely on your own insight or understanding.
[a]In all your ways know and acknowledge and recognize Him,
And He will make your paths straight and smooth [removing obstacles that block your way].
Do we accept this surrender of the future we envisioned and trust His plans,or do we put in our earbuds and try to silence the feeling?
Your sister in Christ,
This post was shared at #InspireMeMonday