Inside: How are you at being Christian? We still have a long way to go as a Christians, don’t we? Living as a Christian is hard, and every day we blow it. When I look at how far I need to go, who I am in Christ makes me realize He’s done it all. He knows I will never get it right.
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So it’s been a year since my post, “I Suck at Being a Christian,” and I feel like I’ve uncovered even more ways I’m missing the mark as a Christian.
Honestly, I’m getting it more wrong living as a Christian than getting it right.
Obvious and obnoxious deficiencies that I’ve unlocked are:
- I don’t pray as much as I should. Frankly, my mind is like a three ring circus when I make an effort to pray. I’m distracted and usually fall asleep mid-sentence.
- I still compare a lot. Maybe it’s because bloggers are online and in each other’s faces so much, but I constantly compare and feel like my position is threatened.
- My worry and fear are still present-much too present.
Why Do Still Suck at Being a Christian?
When I did a self-inventory over the last year, I felt frustrated and guilty.
I thought I’d be further along; instead, I feel like I’ve gone backwards.
Things I didn’t notice before are blatantly clear.
How I fall short in so many areas, which then causes thoughts and lies to come into my head like: I’m the worst Christian ever.
How can you be a Christian blogger when you’re still such a mess??
Who I Am in Christ Matters the MostIsn’t it funny when we start to feel like a failure, God swoops in and directs us to His Words? #beloved #whoIaminChrist Click To Tweet
Even though I have such a long way to go, I’m not where I once was. I understand that I can’t change on my own, and I need God in all areas of my life.
What I’ve realized is: it’s not how much I’m missing, it’s who I am in Christ that makes the difference!
So here is point blank: I’m not sinless. I’m full of sin. If you’re holding me as better than you are because I write, please don’t.
We are all sinful.
Progress is Slow, but Slow is Progress
The reality is: we’re comfortable in our old, sinful ways. Change is hard and growing more like Christ is painful (and frustrating.) It’s easier to go back to our old ways even though we know it’s not the right way.
It’s the battle going on inside of us.
I don’t know about you, but I’m rather comfortable comparing, worrying, and fearing. To choose to be fulfilled, to be at peace, and to trust God is an intentional action. It doesn’t feel safe to go against our human desires.
Sometimes the new way wins, and sometimes (correction: most times) the old way wins.
It’s a fierce battle. But rest assured, we all are struggling inside. Whew, we thought it was just us, didn’t we?
The truth is: if you haven’t accepted Jesus as your personal Savior, you won’t feel this struggle as strongly. You might feel a twinge against your personal morals, but as you silence it, the “wrong way” won’t feel as wrong any longer.
The right way will seem ludicrous because you’ve quieted the inner morals God designed you with.
17 The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions.
The Battle Inside of Us All
Do you feel the struggle? We know what God says about choosing the “right way,” and yet we default to what we’ve been doing aka the “wrong way.” We then feel guilt, shame, and we know what we chose to do was not what God desired.
Do you think God expects any less of us? He knows we will battle, struggle, and get it wrong most of the time.Here’s the encouraging truth, when we accept Jesus as our Savior, God no longer looks at us as sinners, He sees Jesus. #gracewins Click To Tweet
We are pure, blameless, and without sin. Even when we get it wrong so many times.God doesn’t hold any of that against us, because Jesus paid for all our sins on the cross. #unmaskingthemess Click To Tweet
I don’t know about you, but it takes some of the pressure off, some of the guilt away, and most of the shame away.
Grace Makes All the Difference
We won’t get it all right, and most days we will still choose what our flesh is comfortable with; until we’re in the presence of Jesus.
So even though it seems like we’re changing at a snail’s pace, can I encourage you? From God’s vantage point, we are making strides. We are making progress even if it feels slow in our eyes.
We aren’t where we once were. God is working in the deep recesses and doing His work behind the scenes.
I’m might still suck as a Christian, but I’m making headway slowly. I’m not where I once was, that I can be sure of!
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