Inside: When I hit the publish button on my writing a year ago, I was terrified. I needed to trust in the Lord like never before.
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When I pressed the publish button on my writing a year ago, I was terrified. Who was I and what did I have to say? Many times, I thought I would run out of words and topics to cover. I didn’t know anything about writing or blogging for that matter and being intentional hasn’t always been my strong point.
A year later, God has provided me an overabundance of ideas and situations for writing. I thought taking that first leap would be the hardest, but in reality, every day is taking the leap to continue.
Isn’t this how stepping out of our comfort zone is?
Sure the first time we do anything is hard, but continuing to follow through takes intentional commitment over and over again.
Some days, doubt and negative thought patterns enter and we are tempted to throw in the towel. Our expectations fall short and we aren’t as successful as we thought we’d be.
This year has been riddled with impatience and frustration. Honestly, other blogger’s successes and accomplishments are constantly in my face via social media, so the battle of comparison has been par for the course. God knew that I would need the word trust through this journey.
I’ve seen God’s strength in my weakest days and God has come through for me on days when I spent time staring at a blank computer screen. He even carried me through one month of horrible insomnia and sleep medication.
These tests and trials grew my faith, intentionally.
What about you? Has God showed Himself in great ways in your work or life the last year?
Allowing others to see glimpses into my life has forced be to reaffirm my desire to be better. I can’t write to encourage others to trust God in everything if I’m not doing the same thing. Becuase many of my posts are what I’m going through, I’ve even had to go back and read my own words when I’m having a hard day.
Some lessons don’t seem to stick for this girl!
Here’s the thing, many days I feel I’m not making a difference in anyone’s life through my writing because I don’t have gobs of readers. However, I realize blogging has made a difference in my life and my family’s life. I have grown in faith by leaps and bounds and this is over spilling into those within my home.
Using Our Gifts Intentionally
This parable in Matthew really spoke to me this last year.
15 He gave five bags of silver to one, two bags of silver to another, and one bag of silver to the last—dividing it in proportion to their abilities (Matthew 25:15, NLT).
You probably know the story. One man gets 5 bags of silver, one gets 2 bags and the last man gets 1 bag. The man with 5 bags earns 5 more and the man with 2 bags earns 2 more with smart investments. The man with 1 bag gets afraid and buries it in the ground and fails to earn anything.
So many times, I want to forget the gifts God has given me and instead, try to get ahead of myself by using gifts I don’t possess.
I need to work intentionally right where God has me instead of trying to be someone I’m not. As I use the gifts He gives me faithfully, He will increase my ability to grow whether it’s in faith or reach.
It’s hard to serve others when I’m feeling internally frustrated. When I want to have a pity party, I usually want to remove myself from all social settings.
Many moments over the last year gave me pity-parties. However, God nudged me to just continue in spite of a negative mindset. Even though, many times, I wouldn’t “feel” like getting on to social media, writing or making graphics.
Serving is not about a feeling, it’s putting faith in action.
If God has called me to it, I have to do it even in the midst of a messy mood. This has been an important lesson for me over the course of the year. Moving beyond my fickle feelings to intentionally serve my Lord in writing has been what I’ve strived for.
How foolish I will feel someday when He’s standing in front of me and He brings up my excuses for not using my gifts. Will there be sand in Heaven because I think I might stick my head in it?
When God prompts us to serve, we do it in the midst of whatever trial or chaos is happening in our life. We step above the hard and through His power we give Him our best.
One year accomplished, but more lessons and growth need to take place. I still get a flinch of nervousness when I schedule posts or hit publish. Now I feel more pressure because I need to continue on writing. As a result, I’m leaning on God more each day. None of what has happened is because of me because it’s been all Him.
Thank you so much for participating in my journey! I pray your faith is growing right along with mine!
How can you be more intentional in these areas of your life?